this is what i feel

i love you but why you always make me hurt!

i cant live forever with this!

no one can live their life with this kind of problem.

even you've make me hurt for few times.

but i still want you and i still waiting for you!

its been 3months.

but what did i get?

lots of lie that you had give me!
all the tears i cried!

all the pain i keep in side!

no one know how i feel excpt you sister.

i've share everything with her.

she try to help me.

but she cant help me 100%.

you the who make the decision.

i know im not the type of girl you want.

but please dont hurt me.

i always feel the pain.

so please nowdays try to make me happy.

you want me to change right?

soon i'll change like what you've told me.

thats one of my promise!

my happiness come from you!

i remember when you smile.

youre smile such a sweet thing ever.

the way you hugg me.

i miss your hugg alots.

the way you kiss me.

its a soft kiss and so sweet.

the way you pampering me.

so-soo sweet wah.

but nowdays,

i can only miss all those things.

imposible for me to feel it.

how can i feel it?

even my message text you didnt reply.

remember this, i wont give up that easy.

GOD!

please,

i truely love him.

so help me.

i cant live my life with this forever!

i hope you'll help me to prove that i realy love him.

thanks god!

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